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Please before you skip this- i truly need some help. I apologize because I know these topics have been individually addressed but I’m wondering .. does it hold even more significance because I experience ALL of it? I was born on 9/11, - 6 weeks earlier than my due date and right before midnight. I‘ve been seeing 11:11 and 9:11 constantly this year. My life path number is 9. I’ve studied a little bit about spiritual awakenings, but I suffer from severe depression. Right now I’m going through the lowest low I’ve ever been through. Complete rock bottom. I worry I will never get anywhere because as hard as I try, I know my vibrations are always low due to my depression, ptsd, and anxiety. I honestly feel like a lost cause. I’m scared I don’t have a purpose because a sudden illness was supposed to kill me years ago. I’ve had reiki done and I had been told that my spirit guides are frustrated that I’m “stifling” myself, but I have no idea what I’m supposed to be doing, if anything. I’m very very lost, and I can’t seem to get this idea out of my head that maybe I don’t have a purpose since I was supposed to pass away at 25 years old. I’m very afraid for my future. Any and all insight would be greatly appreciated.