This image makes me laugh each time I see it since I was certainly explaining some decaying wood and @maddytakesphotos1616 decided that it was worthy of to be photographed, edited, and shared with me. Its not how most photo shoots go but I actually value the documentation of my fascination
Ive been working with my desire for acknowledgment and appreciation recently, my deep desire to be viewed as someone who knows what theyre doing and has their shit together (awkward transition however roll with it, well come cycle). It stems for my natal astrology (Ceres in Cap in the 7th home particularly) and my childhood (parents who were gifted and extremely successful leading into my internalization of the requirement to duplicate that success and skill). Unloading these beliefs and turning them into more advantageous stories will be a lifelong journey and Im grateful Ive begun it now
Part of this work has exposed itself as not requiring to be the finest at whatever. Im trying to recuperate a learning mindset, permitting myself to be an everlasting student, and admitting that I still have a lot to find about everything has been both terrifying and releasing. Some days I want to give up and fall back into patterns of only doing what I already understand Im excellent at. It has likewise awakened a sense of marvel that I lost somewhere along the way. And thats why, although I make fun of this photo, I also like it a lot. It reveals me in wonder at nature, wondering how the hell the procedure of decay actually works and not understanding the answer. I think that in a state of explorative wonder we can powerful growth and learning
Currently Im in wonder and wonder of all sorts of things. Ive been discovering Venus Star Points, coding, ancestral trauma and healing, herbalism, the Mary-el Tarot, morphic resonance, and the process of decay in nature. I d love to hear what youre finding out about in a state of awe and wonder if you feel so led. Its a stunning place to be.
It shows me in wonder at nature, wondering how the hell the process of decay actually works and not understanding the response. I believe that in a state of explorative wonder we are capable of potent growth and learning
If you feel so led, I d like to hear what youre discovering about in a state of awe and marvel.